shallow hal

Sometimes if I had nothing else to do I would read some of the woman's magazines that my mom subscribed to.The magazines are really boring I think except for some useful articles like the ones in the health section so last night I read one of the articles before I went to sleep.One of the article is about this woman who used to be fat but now manage to be at her desired weight cause she practiced good diet and do some aerobics.So this woman were talking about her motivations to lose weight and the humiliations she felt when she used to be fat. Mainly the humiliation actually came from her husband cause she told on how he used to laugh and mock her cause she's fat.Not only that,at that time he refused to bring her out and even if they went out together he will walk miles away from her.Now that she's back to being slim her husband's treatment 360 degrees.Now he would bring her out and even hold her hands when they were out together.I think it's good that this woman manage to obtain her goal but what I don't get is that how can she tell this story about her husband's change in treatment so proudly?Didn't she felt sorry for herself for marrying such a shallow jerk?Of course I understand that all men would want a beautiful wife but to mock her and to show how ashamed he is of her is that even fair?I'm not saying that I had never mock other people before but my principle is that if you want to say something bad about other people you have to accept that people could say the same thing back to you and you definitely have to be better that the person you look down to.But this man,this shallow husband isn't all that neither.He's not that thin and not good looking however we look at it but this woman is quite pretty for my standard.So I really don't get how he can get away with making fun of his wife and his wife can even love him after all that humiliation.I really can't get it to the point that I was really pissed off after reading that article.Youth and beauty will definitely fades away and what's left of us is what we are.If this man gets really ashamed at his wife just because she's fat how can this woman think that this man will stay with her for the rest of her life.I guess that's another story for a different day.But what I realized nowadays is that I saw more none good looking people being shallow and judgmental instead of the good looking ones.I really don't get it.End.

dreams

I know I always always have the tendency to have weird dreams one after another but usually these weird dreams are not repetitive.For this whole one week I've been having dreams of me chasing after something.Like today I had a dream of me rushing to board a plane but I missed it.Last night I dreamt of chasing after a bus and althogh it's not repeating very similarly but the pattern is there...chasing and missing opportunities.I can remember all these dreams because for these whole week I woke up panting and feeling troubled.I even googled on meaning of dreams but actually I think I already know what triggered these dreams.Anyway end.

ISWAK

Wow what a reunion week.First the trimonkeyz reunion after 1 whole year of not sitting together for a chat then today meeting patin and naz again.It felt nice to talk for hours and forgetting all worries just for a short while.Anyway I watched a taiwanese drama recently tittled 'It Started With A Kiss' (Iswak).Most of taiwanese dramas were actually made based on mangas so it can't be helped that some of the scenes in the dramas were somewhat anime-like but sadly most of the taiwanese dramas incorporated too much of these scenes that it became unrealistic.It's the same thing with Iswak just that I don't think there's too much of these scenes and the storyline is quite nice.Why am I writing about this drama?Because I think that this is one of the most entertaining taiwanese drama that I have watched beside Meteor Garden. It's so funny and sweet at the same time and I just love how the director didn't exagerate much to show these sweet scenes but it still left an impression.The story is about a girl who was forced to stay in the same house with the boy that she have a crush on but had rejected her earlier after her house collapse because of an earthquake.The storyline is quite ok if we were willing to overlook some parts like the parts where the girl kept on tirelessly chasing the guy for years and showing so much efforts even though the guy kept being mean to her.I was tired just by watching it but I perservere cause I wanted to see the happy ending.Another thing that really annoys me is that this girl's dreams and ambitions seems to just revolve around this boy for eg:if the boy wants to be a doctor she will be the nurse.I really don't get how one can live their life based on others way of living no matter how in love we are with that person.Sigh but then I guess there's no perfect story afterall.Sigh agak long winded and pointless this entry.End.

2008 wrap-up

Usually when the year ends I would make an entry on the summary of what happens on that year but there were more things happening in the life of a fly than me so I don't think there's much to write about. However these are some of the things that hapen this year:

1. Four of my cousins got married this year after the 7 years drought.Althought I don't really like changes and things do change a lot between you and people when they get married but hopefully we won't have to wait for another 7 years before someone else gets hitched.

2. Tinka and Alma get married.

3. I just realized that there were so many people left and right who gets married this year.No wonder my mother's friends and relatives suddenly wants to matchmake me to their sons *sweat*.I thought it's because of my age,must be because of all the vibes.

4.  I had my convocation.

5. So many heart breaking moments.I learnt that although living in denial is not the best thing to do but maybe that's the only choice when some things are hard to say out and not within our control. It gets even more heart breaking seeing someone else being burdened and saddened by it.

I guess that's all.I don't have much hope but may 2009 be a better year.End.

birthday'08

My birthday came and gone yesterday.Thanks for all the wishes but I must say the funniest would be patin's.Masa I baca your message patin I was sleeping but even in my mamai-ness I can totally tell that you lied when you said that ugly betty and gossip girl would be cancelled.If it's just ugly betty alone or some other show maybe I would have believed but gossip girl is like one of the highest rating show now.But good effort though haha.Actually a few days before my birthday I thought about my birthday and I honestly think that I wouldn't mind a bit if noone remembered my birthday for this year.I just thought maybe if noone remembered I can pretend that it never happened and that I'm still 23.I don't mind the getting a year older part I just mind the not achieving anything part.When I look at people close to me everyone had achieved something.Patin has this career that I think she like designing walkie-talkie? and stuff,tinka already has a husband and a job that I guess she likes too,nobita might not like his job but at least he is moving somewhere trying to change his life,even huda will be starting her housemanship soon and although she said it gonna suck but at least she has something to look forward to.And then I look at me.

Oh well enough with the emo stuffs.Alas although I don't mind people forgetting my birthday but people still remembered so I guess that's what I have for now...people who actually cared enough to remember tiny details like this for me and that is something to be thankful about.End.