Honestly if people were to ask me a week ago how was my year in 2009 and being 24 the only word that I can think of is painful.There were so many disappointments, anger and heart ache.....in fact I really think the amount of tears last year must have been double or triple compared to the past years.It get to the point that I forgot how lucky I am and started questioning why other people seemed to have an easier life than me.
Few nights ago though, while trying to sleep I suddenly remembered something someone used to tell me before. It was when you have a wish and you wish on it hard enough, god will create a path for you to get to your wish and He will keep giving hints along the way, it's just up to you to pick up the hints and go towards realizing your wishes.It hit me that it is true, god had given me so many chances and hints for me to get out of my troubles and to get what I wanted for but somehow I kept on missing the hints sometimes even ignoring it.It's not that people have it easier than me or they are luckier than me, they were just smart enough to pick up the hints.
So now that I've turned 25 and not that young anymore, I just wish that I would start picking the hints, stop blaming fates and just do my best in everything I do.At least when I've done my best even if I've failed at something it will be easier for me to move on.In 2009, I just want someone to save me and give me solutions and be a hero for me, I realized though that I have to do all that myself cause my life is my own responsibilities. My wish are really simple actually, I don't hope for luxuries now, I just wish that I can be a daughter that my parents can depend on.My parents are not physically fit anymore to work so I wish I could just let them rest and breathe easy.I hope I could stop being so weak and that god will not give up on me even though I know that I've been quite a disappointment. I just failed on something recently but it's ok tomorrow is a new day and I will move on soon enough.Wow I rambled so much in just 1 post I don't even think anyone wants to read this. End.
