birthday

I realized that I didn't blog much about nobita compared to other people in my life like trimonkeyz or my family.To be honest, I didn't want to write much of him cause I'm rather pessimistic with where this is going and I'm afraid that if I wrote much it will be awkward if all this ends.But today I would want to write about you just cause it's today .So here goes..

Facts about nobita that annoys me:

1. That he manage to call about 60%++ of the guys that he saw in a shopping mall faggots/gays/replace with other words with similar meanings.It's weird though that he don't think that his liking for long purses and handbags for man is indeed quite gayish.
2. That he spend so much more time in the toilet and takes longer time to get ready than me.Plus he is always late....and people say women are always late .
3. That he was always annoyed and cranky when he's with me but manage to be cheerful when he bumped into his other friends. Dude,I don't think I'm that annoying ok.
5. That he can tell a mixture of 3 lame and non-lame jokes in a row.Though in his defence I think it's just me.Other people seems to find his jokes very entertaining.
6. That he is very very sarcastic.But to be fair I am very sarcastic myself when I'm talking to him.I always find myself thinking on my foot faster to produce smart/sarcastic remarks in each of my sentence...something that I didn't do with anyone else.

Despite all that,

Facts about nobita that amaze/delight me:

1. That he is very animated and dramatic when telling a story and he always laugh like he mean it.
2. That he is a very good friend.He seems to always come to the rescue of any of his friends that need help and I can say that if any of his friends didn't realize this then they must be some blind fool.
3. That he is a dreamer and he have the drive and trust in himself that he can achieve a lot of things.I love it in a person mainly cause I don't have all that in myself.
4. That he have so much confidence in me,even so much more that what I could possibly have on myself. In corny and cheesy little words, he tried to bring out the best in me.It's a shame that his efforts were wasted cause it's me.
5. That he tried to be friends to those that matters to me.I have never attempted that much efforts for him.
6. That some parts of him is a mixture of tinka and fatin.I guess that's why I find it easy to click with him.
7. Simply cause he's not a hypocrite and very transparent. Though some of the things he said and done might be very wrong or might make people (read:me) very angry but he is what he is.He didn't fake his way or afraid to be what he is.

Up till now, I can't say for sure where this is going but I know that even if all of this could end, you are undeniably a great person and one of the best friends that I might never find again.

So what's the occasion that leads to this entry? It's his birthday!!
So Happy 25-th Birthday!! Damn you're old hahaha. May this year be the year that you accomplish so much more.Miss u babe.End.

Something is seriously wrong with my universe these past few days.Firstly after I met with tinka, her car tyre was punctured and had to be changed.Then when I met nobita,the car tyre also face some problems, lastly on Sunday while I was out with my aunty,her car suddenly just died while climbing the hills.Am I giving a bad car vibe or something? Sigh.So when I came home to penang with my bro yesterday,I really prayed hard that there won't be anything wrong with his car.Thank god nothing happened.

Anyways, I spent this evening paying a visit on my friend who just delivered her first baby.She described the whole process to me.The excruciating pain from her duration of pregnancy up till the point of time her baby actually came out.But the look on her face told me that the pain is all worth it when she took the first look at her baby.Must be nice to have a baby.But if could I would want to be sedated or something if I were to deliver a baby in future so that I won't feel all the pain.And if my husband dare to leave my side,I'll break his neck when I finally recover.Hahaha.Anyways end.

I just watch some videos on youtube about kl freeze.It was so so cool.If u don't know what kl freeze is, it is a time where human being will get together to do something in unison,without speeches or reference to their age,colour,sex,beliefs and backgrounds.In this case they will freeze at a certain location for 5 minutes on a specific time.I think yesterday,they did it in pavilion.and lot 10. They have done it in london and new york.Go watch the video on the one in grand central station.There were hundreds of people just freezing in their locations and people around them were so clueless on what's happening.It's so funny and cool.I wish I was there.Although, I think it's a good idea that I don't join the freeze cause I always get gelak attack when I need to be serious and just freeze.If pu3 around me lagila teruk.We'll spoil the whole thing up,knowing how we can't be around each other when we need to be serious.Or if I do join I'll choose a safe pose.Like covering my mouth or looking down.

I detest self help book.Mainly because usually what they wrote were just boring words like facts that I think I already knew.I mean come on I know I have to stay positive and attract good aura and whatever shit la kan.But then yesterday I read this book 'Who moved my cheese?'.It's not the normal self help book cause the way the author wrote it is in the form of a story.It's about changes and how we adapt to it.It kept me thinking.I think I am someone who is most afraid on changes anyone might have ever met.After reading it,it makes me think on what I was doing wrong and it makes me think how stupid I was being afraid of changes when it will happen no matter how much we fear on it.I really respect people that adapt to changes easily like nobita, my bro and fatin.They make it seems like adapting to changes is not a problem at all.If only I have a lot of money I will buy a lot of copies of the book and just give it to everyone close to me.Unfortunately I don't have a lot of money and I just can afford reading it for free in Borders.If u have the chance go read it,it won't take much of your time but it inspire u to think and change for the better.End.

I am sure that most of us has read on the news of sufiah yusof for the past week.I don't know why but it annoys the hell out of me that some of the organizations still strongly feel that they need to have the initiative to save this girl from her situation now including asking for donations from people to bring a religious guru there cause they strongly believe that she has been put under a spell or something.I can't be sure if this girl is under any spell at all but the thing is why do they feel the need to keep continuing their effort when the girl herself anounces that she is very happy with what she's doing and she don't think that people should look down on her job.She is afterall an adult now and she being a call girl is completely her choice.It is her own decision to have an idol of a fiction call girl character from a novel and it is her choice to be sexually active.So if she wants to be a call girl let her be.Of course she's clearly clueless of why it is so morally wrong to be choosing such "profession" but she is happy and clearly don't want to be saved.Here's an idea, how about these organizations channel all the efforts now to save hundreds or probably thousands of girls out there who were forced into prostitution cause maybe they were tricked in it or were sold to the pimps by their drunken fathers.These are the girls worth saving cause they clearly don't enjoy what they are doing and they deserve a better life as much as sufiah does.If people wants to say that sufiah became what she is now because of the trauma she endured in her childhood, well that could probably be true but the thing is noone has a perfect life.There are so many other young girls who endure so much more trauma as they were growing up being raped or abused.So what I'm saying is that she became what she is now is because of what she makes out of it, it is completely her choice so just stop trying to save a girl who don't want any saving.End.

One in 5 needs mental care

I can safely say that I'm one of the 20 percent and it really gets me worried.Sometimes I don't even know what I am so stressed about and sometimes when I have some issues that get me stressed, it was always blown out of proportion.No doubt that my low self esteem contribute to this condition.I shouldn't be having this especially when I have such great support system behind me, my family, nobita, trimonkeyz and friends. Sometimes I get so beat up thinking how worthless and how useless I am. I look at my parents and I felt so sorry for them for having me as a burden. Don't worry though, I didn't do anything stupid after all these thoughts but I really want to at least feel that I am worth of something.I don't want to feel this. I don't think I deserve to feel this since I don't have a bad history or living a hard life. I'm gonna stop feeling like this.I will. End.

My car met it's first accident yesterday.It was hit from behind.I didn't even know how did that happened. It did happened during peak hour at the time when everyone were heading home and also it was at a busy road but the traffic were moving quite slow then suddenly "BAM".The sound were quite loud for a small hit.Anyway the bumper need to be changed.At first I was quite angry cause I think the car was quite new to meet an accident but the other driver look scared and she's like around my age or younger than me so I felt a teeny bit sorry for her.Then her uncle came and her uncle was quite nice and polite so I didn't feel angry anymore.Just need to bring it over to the workshop today to get it fixed.

Anyway,I had a continuous dream.That's not new cause I do have the "ability" to have continuous dream.But usually it only happened if I suddenly woke up in the middle of the night then sleep back a few minutes after that.This time, I woke up at around 6 something and slept back at 9 something and I still manage to get a continuous dream at around the point where I left it.I dream about attending a summer camp and there were lots of people of different races.I don't even know what's the camp all about but there were photography sessions where everyone have to dress up according to movie themes such as "Marry Poppins" or "The first wives club".It's so weird and meaningless but fun.
Oh so random.End.