2007-The end

Today is the 31st December 2007 which meant the last day of 2007.What my conclusion of the year 2007 is that it definitely was not my year.I know that things happen to us as to what we set it to be but things really did not fall into places for me.Not even close.I'm closing this chapter of 2007 with a heavy heart not because I'm going to miss it but because of the realization on what a total failure I had been for this year.All of which was my fault and while I'm moving forward,I'm not going to get my time in 2007 back.As such, I would not do any recap on the year it was.I am at the lowest point in my life and all I want to do now to get by these days is just to hide in a corner where no one will find me.I close one chapter of my life which was being an undergraduate in 2007 and I just realized how slow I was in moving forward to the next chapter.I missed having trimonkeyz around with their comforting words and advices.I wish that I can make my parents proud of me in which I'm far from achieving.What was sad was being 23 and not knowing to which direction do you want to navigate your life to.But I'm determined to make 2008 my year.I'm going to make it my year whatever it takes.I'm done feeling sorry for myself when I shouldn't when I have all the blessings from god with all the wonderful people around me.I'm done being addicted to pain.I will get past this phase of feeling pathetic and sad.2008 will be my year.End.

I finally finally cut my hair after proscratinating for 4 months.I felt so much lighter now and fresher.The long hair I had before sucks too much of my confidence with the split ends and the hair thining.I wanna have the hair-do like paris's in pic below but since I have bald patches at the front part of my head, the ala-ala-senget bangs tak jadi.It look like a cacated paris hair-do now and if I comb normally it would be like my hair-do when I was in primary pulak.cis.I don't know how the hairdresser did but I think I look cuter with the hair styling that she did earlier.Vain post pulak.Apparently everywhere I go to, there would always be the default question asked"Tak cari-cari kerje lagi ke?".Arghh stress.Even the hairdresser asked me when I wanna start searching for jobs.All the aunties I met in family gatherings lagila banyak tanya.Sigh.I think I took too much time relaxing now.No mood to blog more.End.

Trust hold a large meaning for such a short word.It takes a lot for a person to trust another.It doesn't take a lot to break it though.I used to trust easily.Yes,I am that gullible,naive and innocent.Over the years I learnt how to stop trusting when I shouldn't.Yet,I am still gullible.Over the years too,I learnt how to trust when my heart says I shouldn't.In the end,I learnt the biggest lesson of all.When your heart says something it always has a point.The foundation of a certain matter that used to has a solid ground in a perfect world for me has been shattered.The old me would feel angry,pissed off and would start making a big deal out of the whole thing blaming everything and everyone around me for what had happened.The new me?Not much different only now I knew that everything happened for a reason.The reason for now would be to teach me to be less trusting and prepare on what would come next.Cause let's face it,everybody lied.End.

I went to the family-day in P.D last weekend.It was very interesting and fun.My cousins did a good job organizing the whole things.If they would have had lots of contacts, they can safely start a business in event organizing.Everything has been studied in details.The games were fun, the performance was fun (in more ways than one) and more importantly everyone get to gathered in one place which is a hard thing to do nowadays considering other commitments that everyone has.The t-shirt was cute.The only time where I got bored was when it was k-oke time cause I don't do k-oke so I was just sittng around listening to others sang.Quite a few members in the family have good voice,I felt such an outcast.Hmm....anyway I don't really have any mood to blog so end.