Toyboys

I have totally forgotten about this tag thingy until today.hehehe sori lalink patin.Btw I'm wondering why is the title for this tag cinqo,cinque,cinq?Nvm...Anyway here it is

5 things I would do if I were a millionaire:
- Pay back my ptptn and all my loans.
- Buy some properties.
- Buy myself a car.
- Invest some and hope that it will give me double of what I'm having.
- Give to my family the rest. (balas jasa la tu)

5 bad habits.
- Short attention span.(sometimes I'm lost in my own conversation)
- Bite my nails when I'm very nervous.(eg:in exams)
- Worry freak.
- Procrastinate
- Tend to be very quiet around new people.

5 things I hate doing.
- Study something that I don't like.
- Lie for other people.
- Having troubles with my PC and don't know how to fix it.
- Presentation in front of a lot of audience I guess.
- Chopping onions.

5 things I will never do.
- Commit suicide.(I hope)
- Cut my family off from my life.
- Drink alcohol.
- Wear a 2-piece bikini in front of a lot of people.(It just somehow pops out in my mind)
- Take drugs.

5 things I regret doing.
- Not studying hard in all my life I guess.(Resulting in very bad result)
- Not learning how to swim.
- Gave up on my guitar lesson.
-I guess all those things that I regretted for; I somehow found that there's a reason for all that to happen so i try to not have anymore regrets.

5 favourite toys or things.
- My handphone
- My computer.(although it annoys me a lot)
- My bro's car.
- Toyboy ku otroman. ( )
- My mp3 player.(tapi asyik habis bateri jer)

5 people I choose to do this.
-Toyboyku otroman.
-Toyboyku norman kru.
-Toyboyku John Tucker.
-Toyboyku James Lafferti.
-Anyone willing to do this.

Selamat Hari Raya y'all

I went to jaya jusco just now to buy some groceries for raya.When my mom went to the poultry section,the lady managing the counter asked my mom about me.I didn't really heard what she said since I was busy trying to call my dad.Then she said that I looked similar to her daughter,not only that I walked like her daughter too.It's just that her daughter just passed away just recently.After handing over my mom the chicken,she broke down and cry.Suddenly both my mom and my aunt cried too.That's one of the most awkward moment in my life.I really don't know what to do then.I just smiled while she looked at me closely.When I got back home,I felt really sad for her.It is hard enough to lose somebody in your life.What more that somebody is your daughter,it's harder to saw someone that look similar to her.It must be really hard.It seems like now I know that my face is really common.I looked similar to a lot of people.Even in MMU I found someone that look like me.Oh thinking back now,I hope her daughter is not Haniz Junior.Although I don't personally know her but it will be really sad if it's her.
Now.I would like to wish all muslim readers of this blog which is not that many I guess, a Selamat Hari Raya.I hope this Eid will bring greater meaning and sweet memories in our life.Enjoy the days with your family and drive safely.Now I've to get back on helping to prepare the dishes.End.

Well Fatin this is only the fourth day.Actually, I need to get something off my chest.I'm very very depressed.The thing is that I don't think I should be saying that since I should always count my blessings and think of all the unfortunates in this world.But I have to let it out cause I'm afraid I'll do something stupid if I don't.I was bored hence I'm depressed.There's not much work around.I went into office at 9 and browse the net for the next I don't know how many hours.It's just sad.I do love browsing net and reading blogs but at industrial training I want to experience new things and well.... work.The office is rather small and since it's sales most of them are out most of the times.It's always left me and the other trainee.She's nice so far but I can't talk for a single person for hours and days do I?The only people that I can talk non-stop with are my family and best friends.I envied others that have the opportunity to work at other companies that have a lot of works and can discover new things.Suddenly I want to work so much.I envied everyone.At night I went to sleep with a heavy heart knowing I have to do all the same things the next day.It's only the fourth day.I just want to stop pretending I'm happy and such.I'm not happy.I'm seriouly not.I have never been in the same state of sadness for days that sometimes I thought of doing stupid stuff.I hate being a cry baby and a complainer.But it's 3 months more to come.I felt choked when I though of mmu.I missed going to classes.I missed having wories of not knowing whether I can complete my work or now.At least I have works.I hate all this.I do want to do my best in my works but how do I do that when I don't have any workThere's no battle to fight for.End.

Day 2

Currently waiting for my bro to fetch me since it's raining so we can go back earlier.Today I look up the customers' files till felt asleep like 2 or 3 times.Then my supervisor taught me the manufacturing process.Very electronics.Tomorrow I'm going down to the factory to see the production line so maybe till late :(( because the programming machines for the pcb boards takes a long time to set up.:(( again.I'm quite sleepy.But then again I don't know which day I'm not sleepy.Aaa oh sorry for the delay updating munchiez.I felt asleep much earlier then I thought I would.Anyhow I don't know what else to say so end.I seriously should print these entries and paste them to my logbook if I'm gonna update on my industrial training everyday.It will save so much time.

Day 1

Currently just waiting another half an hour towards end of day 1.Actually I'm pretty sleepy so I didn't do much today.My supervisor asked me to read on components and the clients of the company so that I won't be so blur later on when I need to have the real work.However all I did was reading other people's blog and reading mails :)).It' just that I just finished my finals and now I have to read on EMC filter la photo diode something la.So I get really2 sleepy.Maybe because in a room with aircond so more sleepy.No that's lame.I'm just lazy.And what to write in the logbook?What to draw for the diagram?I'm so clueless.Anyone know how please tell me.Maybe I can print this entry and paste it in the logbook LOL :)).If only la right.Anyway I miss goyang kaki-ing.Actually I just have last weekend for goyang kaki.But,I think I shouldn't complain since if I start early,I get a week less woking hour then people that starts on 30th because I get a week break for next week.Anyhow I'm looking forward for 16/01/07.Sounds like long long way to go.Anyway I'm gonna update in munchiez.So please visit ya.End.

currently in office.erm y am i blogging when i have work to do.sigh 5pm come faster please

face the music

I hate changes.I mean I really really hate changes.Somehow deep deep down inside I love routines.I love the lifestle of knowing what to do next and what will I be getting in the future.I remembered how sad I was when I was about to leave secondary.I cried with one of my friends back then thinking how different life would be.Then I entered MMU and I met some really good people.Some friends that I can really trust to share my secrets and to not judge me on what I did.It was routine again and I somehow love it.I believe these were some of the best days of my life.Now he is leaving.I thought like really thought that it will be ok.Everything will be normal.When I was about to go to sleep tonight I felt a big hollow in my heart.It won't be the same.Everything will change.I'm losing someone that makes me feel secure inside .Someone that I always know at the back of my mind will try to solve my problems if I told him to.I mean of course besides pu3,Fatin and my bro.After sem 3,I'm gonna lose pu3 and fatin too.Both of u,eventhough I can never tell u how,both of u were awesome lifesavers to me.If I can give the awards of superheroes of the year; both of u,my bro and him will get it.Then there are unexpected twist in my family.Things will change.I have no idea how.I just know I need to mend some broken hearts.Some hearts that I would rather die than see them broken again.And there are changes again people.Smack right on your face.I told Fatin just now,life is indeed a tv series.When u thought oh finally everyone can live happily ever after guess again people no they won't.There will be someone or something to ruin it all.When u look back u really wish it didn't happen but somehow these sad times that will make u appreciate the good times and the people around u more.At least u know u are living.I am living definitely.I just need to face the music.For better or for worse.End.

I'm so so sleepy right now.It's like there are tonnes of weight on my eyes.sigh.i haven't have enough sleep since I don't remember when.Right after finals will be industrial training.sigh again.I need rest.I need to shop.I need sleeps.Last saturday I had like 2 and a half hours of sleep only before my basic law exam.Thank god the paper was ok I think.I know some people can manage to not have any sleep at all for 48 hours straight unfortunately I'm not one of them.Even with enough sleep I'm naturally blur what happen if I have no sleep?Disaster.It made me remember my time back in alpha at melaka.After finals for the 2nd sem, I had 1 week of break before muet.So my friends and I decided to stay in Melaka for that 1 week since it's quite a long way to home.I think it was during ramadhan.So of course all our sleeps get haywires.The night before muet I can't sleep.I struggled and finally at around 5 i manage to sleep.Then I was woken up by some knocks on the door.I tought it's only 6am.Of course it's not 6.It's 15 minutes before exam starts.My friends intended to say goodbye to me and my room mate before the exam started but they ended up woking us up instead.I would have missed the exam if not for them.So I skip my bath.Someone even commented that my eyes were like swollen. In the hall during the first part which is comprehension I have a terrible stomach-ache.In the 3rd part I slept.The 3rd part is listening which requires concentration.They only repeat once and I slept for both of the parts.So useless.As u can guess I get quite low for my listening part but I guess luck was with me.I think the final result is not that bad.It's quite ok actually.Then after finishing everything I only have some lil' time to get to the bus station.I went back with puteri so she made some arrangement for her friend to sent us there.With my luck I guess,her friend didn't manage to sent us coz he was quarantined.Anyhow the point of the story is that I need sleep and though the day didn't went that well but somehow I really missed those days.I really missed alpha year actually.End.

Hmm I wish I could write something about today .Some words that shows how special today was 1 year ago.However when it comes to this matter I'm rather bad with words.I have lots of doubts about all this 1 year ago and up till now.All kind of doubts.At times I miss u more than u know of,at times I just can't stand the sight of u.At times I want to be in control,at times I wish u will take the lead.At times I love the way u act around me,at times I really wish u would act so much differently.But it all comes down to a simple conclusion.Luv u babe.
I want to put up a vid that I think is rather sweet and one of my favourites.End.

silent tears

Artist: Vonda Shepard
Song: 100 Tears Away

Go ahead and cry now
Just give in to the madness
The only way to feel your joy
Is to first feel the sadness

Go ahead and sail now
Just give in to the ocean
The only way to tame your fear
Is to feel her rocky motion

You're a long way from somewhere you call home
There's a place in your heart, you're not alone

All of the happiness you seek
All of the joy for which you pray
Is closer than you think
It's just 100 tears away

Go ahead and listen
Just give into the voices
You think you're backed into a corner
But you've got so mahy choices
You can't save all the hungry
The lonely or the dying
Sometimes we wanna give up
But fools like us keep trying

You're a long way from some place you feel safe
Peace of mine comes from just one place

All of the happiness you seek
All of the joy for which you pray
Is closer than you think
Is just 100 tears away

Whatever it is that'll make you feel good
You can have if you want, if you knew that you could
You can have it all baby

You're a long way from somewhere you call home
There's a place in your heart you're not alone

All of the happiness you seek
All of the joy for which you pray
Is closer than you think
It's just 100 tears away


"Looking back on what I said all those years ago, all the hopes and dreams I had, I've come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then some would say I'm a failure. The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that every day won't be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair remember, it's only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home.”-One Tree Hill