So I slept

So I decided to drop my fyp.I did it because I am taking 4 subjects this semester and I don't think I can cope with it if I want to improve my cgpa all at the same time.Besides I can't handle stress that well.Once I'm under pressure my mind phased out and I just stop doing what i'm doing. I thought about it all the time.While I'm watching movie,browsing the net,eating ,while I'm in class just basically all the time.So I tried to fill up my time but it's difficult to fill up your time in the first few weeks of classes and everyone around you is busy.There's not much to be done.So I slept.I slept a lot just so that I will stop thinking about it.My worries is that it's not the right thing to do and I'll regret it later on.My mind keep on finding more and more problems that I could face just by making this decision.I wish someone would just told me that I'm making the right choice and it will work out fine.But that would mean that I'm being more and more dependable on people and that's not growing up.That's not the right way to grow up in my dictionary.So even if I'll regret this later on,well I'll just have to deal with it.The rest is still unwritten.End.

Running out of luck

The first week of the first trimester and I already felt some kind of mixed emotion inside me.Some sad,confused emotions.I need to make some decisions real soon and I still have no idea.Not that I have much choices anyway.In this first week of the first trimester everything seems to be going all wrong.What I planned wasn't achieved,both of my dvd-rom and writer gave up on me,when I queued up to pay for something right when it's my turn to pay the cashier's pc system was down so I have to wait for the next half an hour just to pay for 2 stuffs.I am running out of luck so unless u really have to be with me just run away and make it real fast cause man, I'm spreading this virus of luck around.end.

So the result was finally released.My result was bad.Well I expected that.No suprise.Of couse I expected worse like failing one of the papers.I think I should be thankful.I'm already in SK.Seriously isn't in the mood of going back to CJ.I guess it's because of the tiring last sem so I think I needed more holidays.Ok that's just an excuse.I've always wanted more holidays.I can't wait for industrial training cause I can stay at home.Of course I can't wait to just finish everything up and grad.Thinking about next sem my heart goes dup dup dup.4 subjects and an FYP can I handle it?What if all the lecturers rejected me.I want to think positively but all the what ifs keep on popping in my head.I just wanna stay home not in hostel.Ok whining again.End.

haih the result isn't up yet.Another one of sleepless night coming up.Anyway now with the world cup fever, I realize that it seems most of the blogs I visited will at least have an entry on wc.Well it's good although for some I can't really understand what the blogger actually meant.I watch football sometimes and those were the times when I have no choice.With my bro and dad in the house I don't really hold the power to control the tv channels.But I'm not a fan particularly because I don't understand the game and I don't have a favourite team thus eliminating the need to follow any league.Maybe someday I should take some time to understand the game.Ok it's not likely.Currently I'm feeling confused,nervous,scared all the ingredients needed to have a nervous breakdown.With the fyp titles that need to be decided and even after I decide on a title the lecturer may reject me.How can I compete with other students who have much better results.sigh.end.

The unproductive entry

Hoh.I just came back from langkawi last night.Overall it was a nice trip though I didn't do anything extraordinary there.I get lots of chocolates.Actually there's not much difference in the prices but my dad usually gets extra generous in langkawi in terms of buying me chocolates so it's good.Haih I haven't done anything productive this holiday.It's not as if I've done anything productive in the past holidays.A lot of things that i put in my priority to-do list haven't been done.And the holiday is coming to the end.So not lookig forward to going back to cj.But I'm happy now here in penang at this moment as long as the result isn't out yet.So I'm gonna cherish this moment.End.